Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I wonder how many people are just like me. Well, to explain more; I spend a lot of time alone. I don’t mind it. I don’t have anybody that I truly call a friend. Or anyone I just enjoy hanging out with. My husband is awesome, but I actually make him leave the house if he has been home to long. Like when he got laid off from work in January that entire month I would tell him to leave the house because he was annoying me. Well, I guess I’m writing this because I’m feeling lonely. I need a friend. Particularly a girlfriend. Someone I can share things with, gossip and complain about our husbands. I wonder what I did wrong and how I can fix this. I sit at home for 6 hours alone, 5 days a week while my daughter is at school. All I’m doing is sitting here watching movies on my laptop, cleaning house (which is still a mess) and surfing the net. I feel like such a loser. Don’t normal people chat with friends, hang out, or do hobbies together? How did I end up like this? I wish I could blame my mother for this, but even she has friends. My brothers and sister have friends they hang out with. Hell, my husband has friends he hangs out with. What the hell is wrong with me!!!?? Wow, I feel more pathetic now that I typed this.